The good news is that He is a forgiving God. He welcomed me back with open arms. I'm glad I didn't stay away too long because, now that I'm back, I realize how much I missed being close to Him.
Two years ago I was going through some real Hell in my life. During that time I was so close to Him ... every second. I was too terrified to fall away. I knew how much I needed Him. For everything. He held me, comforted me, pulled me through. He brought many people into my life to help keep me focused on Him. As much as I don't miss the Hell I was going trough back then, I do miss the closeness I felt to Him "in the bad times."
So my prayer in this season of my life is that He keeps me close "in the good times." The times when I might be deceived into feeling that I can make it on my own. In those times I want to remember that I can't make it on my own ... and I don't want to. Life apart from Him - no matter how good it looks in the world's eyes - can never truly be good.